Health
The brain of an overthinker
I am a major overthinker and it affects every part of my life. Being an overthinker is so exhausting. I constantly think and re-think everything I do and say and write. I lay awake at night replaying conversations over...
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Who I used to be
I was reading a book recently and the main character had lost her mother to cancer. This sentence really stood out to me: “The truth is, when your world is falling apart, you stop having “a thing”. You get so...
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Stepping out of my comfort zone
Earlier this month, we had a statewide Resource & Referral meeting. One of the sessions was on art and we had the opportunity to create. At first, I wasn’t going to do it, because that type of stuff is way Read more…
Learning and Growing
March 2023
I knew March was going to be challenging because of the minefield of memories that come up this month. I even made a plan for dealing with it. What I didn’t expect was losing my grandmother. Or wrecking my car Read more…
grief and loss
March 17, 2017
It was March 17th, 2017 when Tom had his first oncologist appointment. He’d had his first PET scan that Monday the 13th. We met the oncologist, Dr. Thompson for the first time that Friday, just 10 days after the scope Read more…
grief and loss
Grandmama’s Mountain
When my grandpa passed away a few years ago, my grandma asked me to write a poem for his funeral. It was difficult to write a poem under those circumstances, but I did. A couple of years later, I got Read more…
grief and loss
Grandmama
I had a work meeting in Oklahoma City last week Tuesday-Thursday. As soon as it was over, I headed down to see my grandmother who had been put on hospice care earlier in the week. Shortly after I arrived, she Read more…
grief and loss
March 9, 2017
On Thursday, March 9th, 2017, Tom had an appointment with the gastroenterologist in the late afternoon to find out the results of the biopsy from Tuesday’s scope. Tom went to work that morning and I had kids that day in Read more…
grief and loss
March 8, 2017
It was a Wednesday. I don’t remember much about the day other than Tom and I decided to go to Ponca City for dinner that night to distract ourselves from the worry and waiting for the test results. We went Read more…
grief and loss
March 7, 2017
6 years 0 months 0 daysor 72 months 0 daysor 313 weeks 0 daysor 2,191 daysor 52,584 hoursor 3,155,040 minutesor 189,302,400 seconds That’s how long it’s been since the day we found out Tom had a tumor in his esophagus. Read more…
grief and loss
Next few weeks
Over the next few weeks, some of my posts are going to be reflections of the days from six years ago when we found out that Tom had cancer. This popped up in my memories today: Tom posted it and Read more…