I posted my Tuesday post earlier today, but I also wanted to acknowledge this special day. 31 years ago today, Tom and I got married.
These “big” days are hard and bring an influx of emotions. Sadness because I miss Tom. Happiness because we had such a loving, happy life together. Thankfulness for the time we had. Loneliness. Anger. Sometimes even bitterness creeps in.
Each year since losing Tom, I’ve made a game plan for how to deal with the day. The first year, I went away to Lawton for the weekend. The next year, I spent the day at home alone. Last year, I planned a family dinner to honor what would have been our 30th anniversary.
This year, I have Cary and I couldn’t ask for someone to be more understanding of the emotions that I deal with on this day.