Today, I thought I’d share this poem that I wrote back in December 2020, less than 4 months after Tom died. Looking at it now, it feels pretty dark and full of despair. I can say that most days I do feel okay. I still miss Tom everyday, of course. But I feel like I am okay.
One thing I am really glad about is the writing I’ve done over the last few years. When I start feeling like I might be stuck, I can look back on it and realize that I have come a long way.
Waking up without you
Waking up without you,
Breaks my heart every day,
Missing you is endless,
It does not go away.
I reach for you,
Realize you’re gone,
And the pain is too much,
I feel like I can’t go on.
Life without you,
Is empty and lonely,
It’s not fair to me,
That I have to do it alone.
I promised you,
That I’d be okay,
I am really trying to be.
But I think it was a lie.
I am not okay,
And I never will be again.
December 2nd, 2020
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